i think im going to have another meltdown....

another test from Him

Today my dad was admitted to the hospital due to diabetes..he was not feeling quite well and went to the clinic for check up..followed with bad news,the dr clarified his blood sugar level is 24 (ie very-very high) and told him to go to the hospital immediately.luckily my sister was around and bring him to the hospital. I learnt from my past experience;my dad is a stubborn person and will only go to the clinic/hospital when he feels really2 sick.if not he wouldnt give a damn about. My mother told me it might be related to his heart condition before and the diseases keep multiplying  from one to another.poor ayah. Which makes me worry,cause he always looks happy and normal and even though he is sick,he will still put a smile on his face, like nothing happen.

Being me and my hectic life, i couldnt even visit my dad just now and i have to wait until TOMORROW to go visit him due to this stupid presentation that i HAVE to not volunteer present. I think my work aren't good enough and the lecturers keep pushing me to do things that i couldnt achieve.I dont know what they see in me but i definitely couldnt see it for myself. It is tough seeing my other mates sitting around and they dont have to do anything,and I,again, have to work extra hard for no reason.

Again, i hate NOT being there..........if only......arghhhh

wedding bells

okay, lets just forget about the sadness!now focus on my wedding,i think im in a depression mode w my studies and all,asyik nak makan je..menci gile..but starting from today!!yess today!!im gonna diet..NO..not going to say diet la sbb slalu x jadi..but eat healthier..during syeera's shower i look at my friends transformations


umi

hanis

these 2 people really inspires me,malu pulak la meratah makanan dgn lahap nya depan diorg ni..depa makan nasi seco'ek je..so now onwards!xmo makan nasi dah,makan sayur2 mcm rabbit..i started morning walk  everyday with my dad to improve my stamina..so now, i just need to focus!i know i can do it!!yeahh..

orait,enough about me
last sunday, we organize a wedding shower for or beloved friend,syeera!
Theme: Masquerade

b2b

it was an AMAZING night with the ambience & music..and our gorgeous decorations!

everyday definitely play some role in making this event successful..yang penting bride nye HAPPY!

we started off with eating dinner,malangnye xde gbr sbb  sume pelahap sgt..and then we played scratch games

End product by mai kot ni..each of us got this black mask and what we need to do is design whatever we want on top of it by scratching it and then we played a game..mcm lekat2 starla..it was fun!first we have to pusing2 kan org tu smpai pening lepas tu lekat d star..everybody got to do it..mmg xde org dapat lekat kt real close except for farah!

I lupe, before the games,ade in house band played and sang us lagu sedetik lebih and belaian jiwa, we sang a long with them and hug each other tightly,then the party begins after mai suggested us to dance w the samba music,it was definitely a moment to remember,No photos,everybody sibuk dancing..hehe..the nite ended w dessert, cupcakes!!

it says here; sheeras bachelor8..lol at first i pun tak paham SBA tu

 it was an amazing night,rasa nak post je sume gbr..but those who know me can check it out on my fb timeline:)thats all for now..toodles!

RINTIHAN KOSONG

Ya Allah,sesungguhnya fitnah adalah lebih teruk daripada membunuh..

Entry will be long..stay with me

selama aku hidup, aku TAK pernah menangis kerana seorang kawan
Aku tidak tahu nilai seorang kawan boleh membuatkan air mata mengalir deras
Harini aku mengalaminya,
sungguh mudah bisikan syaitan menghantui seseorang,
aku juga tidak dapat lari daripada godaan syaitan,
Namun tidak sekali syaitan dapat memutuskan persahabatan yang telah aku  bina,

kawan ku ini ialah antara manusia terpenting dalam hidup ku,
bukan niat ku untuk menyalahkannya,
sekalipun untuk menidakkan tanggungjawabnya sebagai ibu,
salah kah aku untuk meluahkan perasaan aku,
sedangkan dia sering meluahkan ketidakpuashatian nya kepadaku jika aku salah

ikut kan hati mati,ikut rasa binasa,

aku tak menyesal dengan apa yang aku telah luahkan,

selama ni,aku sering mendengar,membantu,dan aku akan pastikan dia sentiasa gembira walaupun dia sering merasakan dirinya tidak sempurna..ketidaksempurnaan yang dikatakan adalah Perfect untuk orang seperti aku.

Mungkin warkah aku ini agak kebudak-budakan..namun, tidak salah untuk aku meluahkan perasaan yang terpendam

aku telah melakukan segala-galanya,
aku rasa untuk dia paling banyak sekali pengorbanan aku sebagai kawan,

Namun, untuk dia tidak,
sungguh mudah untuk memutuskan pertalian menerusi alam siber yang penuh dengan hasutan

Aku terasa difitnah,
dan yang paling penting,buat kali pertamanya aku menitiskan air mata,
amat sebak bagiku untuk menggambarkan perasaan ini menerusi kata-kata

"if it means losing friendship,then be it,"


diluahkan di twitter oleh rakan baik ku ini..aku tidak dapat menyalahkannya kerana berkata sedemikian,tapi ingatlah
aku juga punya perasaan,
aku punya hati,
aku punya maruah,
senang-senang kau berkata sedemikian,
dan aku redha hilang seorang rakan sebegini
mungkin kita akan berjumpa di hari lain,
tapi aku tidak akan berada disisi kau ketika kau sedih,kau rasa seperti tersisih dan terutama sekali bila kau memerlukan teman untuk berbicara


Saat ini,aku mungkin sudah tidak berkawan dengan kau,
dan tidak mungkin akan menjalinkan persahabatan kembali atas cacian terhadap aku,
aku tidak bersalah 


namun aku maafkan dia sebagai makhluk Allah




betul kata nadzmin,berkawan biar berpada,nanti binasa diri


semua orang tidak akan faham perasaan aku,
biarlah aku dan diriku

26

yess!im 26 this year on the 5th of April 2012..thanx for those who wished me .. i had so much fun..

first of all thanx to fiance:got my MJ bag :)

secondly to kina & intan my classmates who surprised me with a sweet lunch treat (thx for remembering)

lastly to my babes who remembered..and held a birthday dinner for me at serai, empire!!!such an intimate gathering and they hv awesome fuds..

thx so much..sayang korang..

ain,nadzrah,syeera,umi and far el

banyak sgt kek ni nk makan mane satuu..yumss2

p/s: Ain, syeera and nadzrah surprised me saying that they wanted to buy me a polaroid camera..happy sgt..malu nk tunjuk muka excited:) 

cant wait for it..hehe

Thank you to each and everyone of u.i tot im going to have a gloomy 26th..probably its a new beginning :)

Guestbook

I made this for my bff's wedding, 'ain & azizi..its a hardcover laminated 157g thick art card..check it out..

The front cover page

The rear view

 The inside

it's about 50 pages and 1.5cm thick each page is about 110g and designed

So if u want a custom guestbook of ur own u can order from me, i will be beyond glad to help you to make ur wedding dream come true :)

Love,

Yasmin

red velvet recipe

 I came across this red velvet recipe in the net at pig-pigs corner, it's superrr delicious..i think u guys shd try it too..its not dat hard to make it..well, im not going to do business out of this so i'll  just share it with u guys..

This is mine,


Adapted from recipe taken from the Hummingbird bakery website.
By Pig Pig's Corner
However, i made sum changes because the original recipe is for a whole 6 inch cake

so good luck!and enjoy baking

Red Velvet Cupcake

Prep time: 15 mins 
Cook time: 15- 20mins cupcakes
Yield: 10cupcakes.

Ingredients: 
For the cake:

• 60g unsalted butter, at room temperature
• 150g caster sugar
• 1 egg
• 10g cocoa powder
• 20ml red food colouring (i used powdered colouring)
• ½ tsp vanilla extract
• 120ml buttermilk
• 150g plain flour
• ½ tsp salt
• ½ tsp bicarbonate of soda
• 1½ tsp  vinegar (i used kicap tamin vinegar)

For cream cheese frosting: enough to cover the whole 3-tier cake

• 300g icing sugar, sifted (I used 200g)
• 50g unsalted butter, at room temperature (I used 40g)
• 125g cream cheese, cold (I used 200g)

Directions:
For the cake

• Preheat the oven to 170°C.
• Beat butter and the sugar on medium speed until light and fluffy and well mixed.
• Turn the mixer up to high speed, slowly add the egg and beat until everything is well incorporated.
• In a separate bowl, mix together dry ingredients and sift
• Turn the mixer up to slow speed, slowly pour in half the buttermilk, red colouring, vinegar and vanilla essence.
• Beat until well mixed, then add half the dry ingredients beat until everything is well incorporated. Repeat this process until all the buttermilk and flour have been added. Scrape down the side of the bowl again.
• Turn the mixer up to high speed and beat until you have a smooth, even mixture.
• Pour into a lightly cupcake tin.
• Bake for about 15-20 mins or until done. Check for doneness by inserting a toothpick in t he middle, should come out clean if done.
• Leave to cool slightly in the tin before turning out onto a wire cooling rack to cool completely.
• Frost with cream cheese frosting.

For cream cheese frosting:

• Beat the icing sugar and butter together on medium-slow speed until the mixture comes to gether and is well mixed. Mine formed crumbs instead.
• Add the cream cheese in one go and beat until it is completely incorporated.
• Turn the mixer up to medium-high speed. Continue beating until the frosting is light and fluffy (at least five minutes). Do not overbeat, as it can quickly become runny.

yasmin